Today marks four months since you went away

I’ve given up on trying to feel better since you’ve been gone

I know I’ve been lying and saying that I’m okay

But I’m having more trouble than I thought with moving on

You said something- and I know you didn’t mean it that way

But it has been in the back of my head, keeping me up till dawn

I made you the villain for moving on

And I know it’s not fair of me to think that way

But I still see your shadow, even when you’re gone

I told myself if in time, if this feeling didn’t go away

I would forget about it, let it float away with the dawn

And that way I would eventually be okay

But now you’ve come back my way

Standing on my porch at the brink of dawn

You never called and asked if this was okay

Now how do you expect me to move on?

I should turn you down, push you away

But I don’t really want you gone

You make casual talk, ask if I’ve been okay

But that’s a touchy subject to begin on

That feeling left the moment you got away

Packed your bags as you rode into the dawn

I told you if I could, I would have had it my way

And you would have never been gone

I can’t find the words, so we talk until dawn

I slowly let the words find their way

And you let me ramble on

For the first time I feel like it’s going to be okay

For the first time since you’ve been gone

And I feel myself slowly start to slip away

You said you thought about me when you were gone

And that nothing about it felt okay

You said you couldn’t find your new dawn

Because the only one you wanted was far away

There was nothing you could do to move on

I became a ghost, haunting you in a way

I know that we had both gone our separate way

And we both agreed moving on would be okay

But as dawn lingers, I realize this is the last time I want you to be away.